Jessica Robin And Baby Szydelko

JESSICA ROBIN SZYDELKO 17TH JUNE 2005 and also jessica's brother or sister.
baby szydelko lost 18th september 2006 lost at 11 weeks pregnant

This memorial is created for our much loved and missed beautiful daughter jessica robin szydelko she is our angel baby sadly born asleep due to a cord accident (it had tangled round her little neck tightly cutting off her oxygen 3 times ) 24 weeks into my pregnany and every little bit perfect we will remember her forever.

MY STORY, BY CLAIRE HINCHLIFFE my personal experience

17th June 2005 my world ended my beautiful daughter left me, my broken heart, my dreams gone in the blink of an eye .My little girl taken from me.
17th June I gave birth to Jessica Robin Szydelko at 24 weeks gestation weighing 1lb 6oz she did not breathe, she did not cry. Jessica stayed with us until it was time to leave. We held her, we kissed her, we took many photos of her, We shared her with our family. I looked at Jessica I felt so much sadness all my dreams for my beautiful little girl gone, I was never going to see her cry, see her smile, watch her play with her daddy, stare at her in my arms as she slept. To have had a daughter die and be so young I have had no chance to even see her alive, losing my perfectly healthy daughter at 24 weeks was and is so incredibly traumatic. It’s hard to even find the words to express what I went through emotionally and physically.
Time to go, I was scared to leave her alone I was scared beyond belief to walk out of the hospital with my arms empty, having to leave the hospital without my daughter was the hardest thing I will ever have to do In my whole life!. We stood and cried, held each other to watch our baby go! leaving her, leaving the hospital alone.
I spent the following days as the funeral approached in a daze I felt as I was moving in slow motion I was surrounded by family and friends but I felt such emptiness and so alone with my pain and hurt. Everyone I felt was getting on with life I was in a world of my own the pain was and is raw. I want my baby, I want my daughter back my arms ached and still does to hold her, my heart aches to love her.
No parent should have to bury their own child I have never felt so much pain, to watch my partner Jessica’s daddy carry the coffin in which our perfect baby lay and to watch as he lay her to rest the tears in his eyes the pain that we both feel as we visit our daughter with flowers as we remember her our hearts broken for all eternity.
I have come so far since 17th June 2005 although it has been very hard a long road the months following her death I ‘ve cried in the darkness of my depression and anxiousness new situations triggers a whole new wave of heartache the depth of my grief is tremendous.



An angel in the book of life wrote
down my precious daughter jessica robin's birth
and whispered, as she closed the book.... too beautiful
for earth.
sleep well, little one,
with every breathe we are kissing you....goodnight,
not goodbye!....x x x


sleep tight our precious angel x x x


As Long As I Live You Will Live
As Long As I Live You Will Be Remembered
As Long As I Live You Will Be Loved


"The mention of my child's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you are really my friend, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul."

a flower lent not given to bud on earth and bloom in heaven gone but never forgotten x

If snowdrops grow in Heaven,
Please pick a bunch for me,
Place them in my Baby's arms,
And tell her, they're from me,
Tell her I love and miss her,
And when she turns to smile,
Place a kiss upon her cheek,
And hold her for a while,
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it every day,
But there's an ache within my Heart,
That will never go away

If Kisses were rain drops
I'd send you Shower
If Hugs were minutes
I'd send you Hours
If Smiles were an ocean
I'd send you the Sea
and if Love was a person
I'd send you Me